Hello, at the grand old age of 33 I am having a wobble. Over the last few weeks I have been very busy. An elderly friend of mine's cat was extremely ill and I ended up going over every day for about 7 weeks to medicate him, usually followed by a cup of tea and a chat, as well as lots of stuff going on at weekends, my Cinnamon Trust dog walking, work has been mad and a bit stressful (moral seems quite low), Dh has had a difficult time at work too and, to be honest, everything has got a bit ...well....I felt a bit wrung out. Life feels a bit stagnant. The weather doesn't help I think.
I suffer from anxiety and have done for about 15 years and at the moment it is the passage of time that troubles me. Is this normal? Life seems so fleeting and I don't really feel like I'm doing very much. You never know what's round the corner.
Dh and I had a heart to heart at the weekend as I was very upset and I feel I need to make some changes and although it's only the third day I am feeling much more positive already.
At the weekend apart from working I read books I got from the library, we watched Wartime Farm together while dh did some of his wargaming hobby, I finished crocheting a snood for my sister and we cooked a lot from scratch. We discussed money and the sort of work/life/money balance we want. I made a terracotta pot heater and at the moment I am making carrot and sunflower crackers. Tonight I am watching Life Below Zero, another of my favourite programmes
Things are starting to feel a bit more of how I think life should be feeling, although it's only early days. I am going to blog more and be more open about my life. I look forward to you joining me.
|Sunflower and carrot crackers|